Feb 10, 2011

|| sad today ||

the person i love the most is hurting.
...because she is lonely
...because she is single
...because she can't lose weight
...because she doesn't have a kid

and, it is just not right.

when someone strives to be a good person and do the right thing, you think that good would come to them. what is it going to take for her? what happened to the whole "i will give you the desires of your heart" thing?

THIS IS WHY I STRUGGLE WITH BELIEF...

it is not because i don't want to follow rules or go to church, its because someone who does (better than anyone else i know) is completely unhappy. she cries at night, alone in her bed. she cries when she gets off the scale. she cries when she leaves family holidays because she doesn't have her own family.

it is effed up. she isn't asking for a million dollars, or a giant house. she just wants a life.

Jan 19, 2011

|| i fall ||

for waitresses...

...every time. i don't even want to, but they get to me.
i'm not really in love with a waitress, just an observation...

that's all for today.

Jan 13, 2011

|| blue scarf ||

a scarf is a scarf, and blue is blue

but the blue scarf is something special
it is the best of me and makes me better

sometimes i lose the blue scarf
disappears for months at a time
but when i find it, i'm at peace

you see, i love the blue scarf
i love what it stands for and what it believes
i love how it sees me and how i feel about it
i love that it has big plans

i fear the big bad blue scarf
i fear where it hangs each night
i fear for its safety and well being
i fear losing it
i fear love without return

it is a beautiful blue scarf
it has an amazing glow about it
it is something special
it is completely on my mind
it will be the death of me
to me, it is perfect